(You were really 21 here but thats ok you kind of get the idea of what you looked like)
Dear 14 year old Naomi,
Hello it is much older Naomi here. I don't know that I have much wisdom to pass on to you. I can barely remember you but I have a haze of memory that seems to linger around you. I know that you yearn for things. A perfect family. A boyfriend. A deeper faith in God. You are imaginative and creative but way too sensitive. You need to toughen up and not take things so personally. Think about others, the world doesn't revolve around you no matter how much you want it too.
Be kinder. Think more before you speak or act. Consider others. Don't worry so much about what others think and just be you. You are NOT FAT. NOT UGLY. Believe me that is to come. For now you are gorgeous if only you knew it. Raise your expectactions for yourself and lower them for others. Others will never be able to give you what you need - only God can fill that hole. I am still learning that now too. Push yourself harder at things. You coast along on natural talent when you could be really really great if you put your head to it.
Don't press your insecurities onto others. Allow others around you to make mistakes as well and forgive them when they do just as you want to be forgiven. Laugh, enjoy, be spontaneous, have fun. Don't worry about boys and all that stuff. You have the rest of your life to pay bills, and worry about things. Be carefree. Live for God. All the rest falls into place if you do this. He has a plan for your life. It isn't the plan you have made in your head and that is OK. His plan is the best one. Enjoy the friends you have because believe it or not in a decade you will know less than 10 percent of them and a decade after that you will know even less of them. Extend yourself. Reach out to the ones that you naturally reject as not pretty enough, popular or funny. Everyone has something to offer and your life experience will be richer for stepping out of your comfort zone.
Nothing in your life will be as you expect and thats ok because yes you are imaginative but God is amazing and he way exceeds your biggest dreams.
Love your older self.
Naomi
